Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Before pictures

I had just got done working out....that is why I look sweaty.
Hopefully I won't look 6 months pregnant as I keep on working out everyday.

So I started doing turbo jam... I am sure you all have seen the info commericals. Well I have been doing it for the past two days and I am really liking it. They tell you to take before pictures....so I did...I am posting them on here so you all can see the change (as it happens). They aren't the prettiest pictures...but I think that if you all know what I am doing then you can encourage and hopefully check up on me.

My Little Man

My husband has been working 4 10's so he can have Monday's off. Yeserday he had the day off so we ended up going to East Canyon again so he could try fishing. He didn't catch anything AGAIN!! But we did have fun just being outside on such a nice day! I did take a few pictures of me and my cute little man.

Think About...

Happy moments, praise God. Difficult moments, seek God. Quiet moments, worship God, Painful moments, trust God. Every moment, thank God.

I have been struggling lately with the spiritual side, the physical side, and emotionally side. Yesterday my visiting teacher came over and we ended up having a good converstation. The message was about marriage. I felt like for the first time we kind of bonded. She is about 80 something old and just hasn't seem like we have much in common...but we ended up having a really good talk. She then pointed out the quote that that I started this blog with. It really hit me and I knew that it was meant for me. I know that I try to do things on my own and instead of trusting God I try to trust in myself. I don't know how many times he needs to humble me and show me that I can not do on my own...and when I do it on my own then I usually struggle.

Right now things have been tight with money. I have been a Loan Processor for the past year and half. I have been able to work from home and I have really gotten use to be able to be my own boss. So anywho...my job has pretty much gone away because of the way the market is. It has changed so much...so I am pretty much out of the job. I have been looking for something for me to do part-time...and yet it breaks my heart of thinking of leaving Gavin. I know that sometimes you just have to do what you have to do. I think a part of me would really like having a job where I am with other people and get a break from Gavin...since I am a people person...and lately I have been feeling really lonely.... but at the same time I hate the thought of someone else watching my little boy... we also have been searching for a new job for Corey...but nothing yet for either one of us. I don't really like sharing these things with people...but this is one of the examples that the Lord is humbling me right now. I know if I put more faith in him that things would work out a lot faster. Things don't happen on our timetable...it happens on his timetable.

Anywho I guess that is right now. Good night!

Thursday, April 24, 2008

In Loving Memory of Sweet Baby James

April 20th was the 2nd anniversary of James passing. We all met up at 5:00 at the gravesite and was able to pay full attention to this little boy that has changed all of our lives one way or another. I didn't know James all that well. He was born while I was on my mission and then when I came home they lived in Las Vegas. I was blessed to go and stay with my cousin and her family for about a week or so. James was a beautiful and so sweet! I was amazed at the wonderful role that my cousin took on as a mother and wife. The love that they had for this child was crystal clear and I know can comprehend how much a parent loves their child.
At the graveside Michelle shared some thoughts, we sang some songs, and then a closing prayer was given. People were able to let their balloons go. Michelle had a very hard time letting hers go. After word we embraced and shared some tears. I told her why I knew it was hard for her to let go of her balloon....I said it was because it is a symblolize of her letting go of James. We all long to reunite with James for not only does his immediate family miss him but so does everyone that got the changes to share a few moments of this earth life with him.
I am very grateful that I was able to pay my respects to James and to be their for my best friend as they have to go through this very tuff trial. I am so grateful to know that she is married to a wonderful husband and is blessed with two other children. The Lord is very mindful of her and even though at times we feel alone we must remember that if we turn to him he will always be intune with us. This family is a great example to me and I love them very much! We love and miss you Sweet Baby James!

5 Months Old

this picture is the 5 month picture him using the Johnny Jumper

I have been meaning to write for a couple of days ago.. Gavin turned 5 months on Sunday April 20, 2008. I can't believe how old he is getting and what a cute little boy he is inside and out! I feel it a great pleasure and blessing that he was put in my life as my son. I love those small and little things he does and I try often to capture those things in pictures or to make a mental note in my memory. Here are a few pictures I took.

Monday, April 14, 2008

Just For Fun!

I just love taking pictures of my little boy! So these pictures are just for fun! I think this last picture is just too funny! Oh I love Gavin!

Fishing at East Canyon

When ever the weather starts getting nice my husband starts getting the itch to go fishing. So Saturday we decided to take a picnic up to East Canyon. It was a nice day but not as nice as we thought it would be! Most of the lake still had ice on it... We did find a pretty nice spot to let my husband go fishing...to bad he didn't even get one bit! It was nice when the wind wasn't blowing. We all managed to get a little bit of sun....even poor little Gavin! It was nice to be out in the mountains but I think we will hold off to go fishing again any time soon.

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

No Georgia :(

I guess we aren't going to Georgia now...and that really stinks! I was really looking forward to it. Oh well! I guess I will be able to go sometime.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Luke & baby Gavin

Cousin Luke loves baby Gavin! He is always wanting to help out and make sure that Baby Gavin is taken care of. When ever I need to change his diaper Luke is right their to help. This picture was taken last night after we got back from eating at Boston's and then the men went to the preisthood session. Gavin was so tired! Even though you can't see his eyes he is alseep under his hat!

Georgia Macon Mission Reunion- April 5,2008

I was able to attend my mission reunion on Friday night. It was a great blessing to be able to gather with my fellow missionaries to talk about those good ole' days. I only took one picture that night...I meant to take more but didn't get around to it. I loved showing off my little Gavin. It is amazing the love you have for those that you served around. I missed all those that couldn't attend.

Friday, April 4, 2008


I was just reading over the post that I posted last night and noticed that I put server instead of serve ... I was typing in late last night and it was a mistake on my part...hahah I am still so excited!

Thursday, April 3, 2008

All my bags are packed..I'm ready to go...to GEORGIA!!!

I am so excited! I am going to Altanta Georgia on the 18th of this month. I didn't sever in Altanta Georgia but my mom and I are going to get a car so we can drive to a couple of the places I did server in. We are going for business...we are looking at joining a new mortgage company and they have some stuff going on that weekend. I will be taking Gavin...but leaving my husband for the weekend :( I am hoping that I can see some GREAT people from my mission. I totally miss my mission and the people. It was the greatest thing to be able to give a 100% of yourself and to server our Heavenly Father children...oh how I miss the feeling of being a missionary. You always felt tired but knew that you were doing a great thing! Feeling yourself grow in the gospel and have a love for people that you never thought you would have for others...it was the BEST! I feel so blessed to have served in a state side mission. This is my 3rd time going back since I have been home...and I feel so blessed for that! Well I need to go to bed! Goodnight!